130109:13 january 2009

it was supposed to be my 1st day of part time this morning, instead i got up at 10am...naturally...

while doing some graphics work at home, my mind began popping out "what if" questions. what if i could turn back time, will i still be standing where i stand today?

1. what if i did not choose to study design during foundation, will i be good in commerce & understand how to run a business today?

2. what if i were less playful, will i know so many crazy idea friends?

3. what if i were little more concious, will i notice the true colour of people around me?

4. what if i were to stand for myself to work in australia for 2 yrs, will i still be working in australia today?

5. what if i were to start my career in australia, will i be the creative director or still be a designer?

6. what if i were still in australia, what kind of lifestyle will i have? will i be travelling to many places?

7. what if all the above were true, will i be enjoying my actual life more than now?

8. what if i were to accept truth at early stage, will i still be typing this?

so many what if to ponder... simple as that, i guess i am not being optimistic on what i have today... could it be due to no sense of security? confidence? goal?